Woody The most Evil Scowl that i have ever meet in my life.
The True Meaning Of A mother's Love for Her Baby
MR, Monty Roberts The Greatest horsemen to To ever walk this earth I only wish that one day i could be hafe as good with horses as he is .
for my two best friends in the whole wide world.
there are people that come into our lives each ,and everyday ,but some come and go others are only there when they want to be ,but you guys are always here for me when i need you ,and your always watching out for me ,and always trying to keep a carfal eye on your little sister ,and i just wanted to write this post to let you both know just how much that i love ,and apostate you both so very much. I don't know what i would do without you guy's my life would be so empty ,and meaningless if i didn't have you as my true friends ,and i thank god each and everyday for sending you to me as my friends, and you know that no matter what might happen in my own life that i am always going to be here for you when you need me ,and I'm not' going anywhere because i true friend want leave a friend standing out in the cold alone instead we give you a blanket ,and stand there with you until your ready to come back into the by the warmth of the wood fire, and you guys have both been there for me throughout the years there was so many times when i myself didn't want to come back in ,but yell never gave up me ,and for that i am grateful ,and for that i can say that you are my only true two friend. I LOVE you guys with all my heart forever ,and always
love your little sister
hopeless in Arkansas. thank you for being my best friends
To my niece
you are the one that makes me laugh
you are the one that makes my day bright
you are like my sunshine on a cloudy day
you are the one that always makes me feel loved ,and you always make
me feel so special
your also the only one that bets me at wahoo ,but at the end of the day i know that its worth it because, i know that you had fun spending time with me , and i thank god each ,and everyday for giving me such a beautiful ,and loving niece.
I feel like the luckiest aunt in the world having you in my life ,and as i watch you grow up i can't help but tell you each ,and everyday just how proud of you that i am . you are my kid ,and i love you with all my heart forever ,and always no matter what I will always be your crazy aunt that you love so much.
everything in this life is unprdctbul
everything is so unsure
everything is not' alway's right where we want it to be.
everything is not' always easy for us.
everything is not' perfict in everyway
everything is said to be into the unknown for us
everything is messed up to a point ?
everythig is special in its own way ?
everyone is special to us in our own way?
This was patsy my very first riding horse' she wasent very big ,but this old girl had a heart like no other ,and she took me so many place's I had her for over five years ,and in that five years she became a big part of my family ,and back in 2006 I gave her to my best friend kari's little girl for her very first poney. That little mare was so good with that baby ,and she love'd her so much, and she took my friends baby all over ,and thought her how to ride, just as she did me all them years ago.
Patsy died this year back in september she truly was my first love ,and my first best friend ,and i know that the last three years of her life whear happy ,and that she was love'd by one little girl just as much as i loved her when she was mine.
for momma
one little girl's dream come true
a mother's prears anwserd
a million miles trvaled together
a million scerets shared between one little girl ,and her pony
a million memorys to cahirsh for a lifetime
one love that was connected through the heart's of a child ,and a horse
the sweetist little mare that i have ever seen in my life.
though smail she had such a great big heart ,and cared so much about that baby ,and alway took care of her when they was out riding .
patsy was a really good one she will always remain in our heart's ,and will never be replaced she truely was one of a kind , and I will miss her so much I already do ,and only hope that she know's how special she was to all of us. she was not' just a poney she was family to me ,and to my friend she was the best friend that i ever had.
so goodbye my sweetheart i will always carry your memry with me in my heart whereever i may go i will never forget you . and in my heart you will never be replace'd thank you my beautyfal girl for takeing care of me ,and so many other's in your time here on earth i truely belileve that you was an angel sent down from haven to help so many children learn how to ride, and i know that now your taking the long earnd vaction that you need'd for so long ,and that you happy ,and your no longer in pain.
In loving meimry or Patsy
9/4/2008
she was 38 years old.
If I could I would have the wall's in my living room painted to look just like this pic because i love it so much it make's me feel free when ever i look at it .
this is of my uncle he died back in 1998 ,and i stile miss him each and every day that goes by i was very close to him . when i was stile a baby the very first word's out of my mouth was unky dady to my uncle . he was like my father the only one that really ever came close I miss him so much.
This pic was taken in michigein by one of friend's that way trying to get on my bad side because i told her not' to take this pic ,but she did anyway even though she know's i hate having my photo taken.
At this point though i was already on my way to the main hall for the finale dance ,and yeah I'm even smiling in this one thats not' very offten it must have been the yellow rose that my escort bought for me lol
I love this one because to me it show's the true love of a horse,and rider just when i look at this photo i am wishing that i was this rider . I would love to be back in the time's when horse's where all that people need'd to get around ,and go back to the old country sene.
yeah I was feeling just a little bit country lol.
no just kidding I really don't know what i was thinking when i took this photo I really don't I must have been really bord.
over the highist mountins we will ride
through the deepist sea's we will sweim
across the longist fild we will run with the wind
to the top of the tallist tree we will clam
to the buttom of the deepist cayion we will fall
but at the end of everyday we will always stand forever in unity one for all.
you can hurt us
you can even brake us ,but you will never own us
you can have us ,and you can lose us ,but you will never get us back
you can hit us ,but we will hit you
you can reack us ,but we will stile stand tall one for all.
this is just my way of saying that to me the way i see it is that cowgirls do cry sometime's ,but we always get back up ,pick up ,and yes we always move on.
as i stand here i feel as though i am looking at the life that i once new that can nomore be because i am now yet once again standing outside looking in.
through the window i can see you standing there with the one that you chouse over me ,and i can do nothing about it because once again i am standing outside looking in. through the shadow's of my mind i can stile here your voice calling out to me ,but i can not reach you for i am only standing outside looking in. I remember how many time's that i tryied to help you through ,and the times that i told you i loved you ,but yet I stile couldent reach you for i was only standing outside looking in. In your eye's i would never be the person that you wanted ,and for that reason is why i have always been here ,but have always been left standing outside looking in.
was the that i wanted to spend the rest of my life with
was the that i loved more then life its self
was the that i fought so long for
was the that i gave my whole heart to for so many years
was the that i gave my trust to
was the that i would have gave my own life for.
was the that i gave everything up for
was the that i treated like a king
was the that i beged not' to leave
was the that i longed for everynight
was the that i torw me apart inside
was the that dient love me
was the taht used me for over three years
was the that finally broke my heart for the last time today.
things that people have never known about me just to list a few.
1. I am a free spirit
2.I am very restless.
3. I am very Paseint
4. I am very Unpredictable.
5. I am very calm.
6. I am very shy at time's.
7. I am very free worded.
I know that it has been some time sense my last post ,and even i don't really know where to begain on that part?????
I have been trying for so long to find the words to write to try ,and start writing again ,but untile today the words have been lost to me. so this next post will be one that i havent tryed writing before ,and is one that may be just a little bite rough because i havent done this is so long. but last night i had someone tell me that i should keep writing no matter what this messed up life throw's at me so here I go again.
it has been so long sense i could come up with something to say there for the longist time i could not' write about anything. but the good news is that sometime last week the real hope came back i don't even know where i was hiding ,but i'm back now ,and am so happy i love this life that i'm living the people that i have around me ,and my blogging family so much . so everyone thats been reading my blog this one is for you its all new so i hope that you enjoy it.
comming home "
I was lost for so long ,and now i have found my way back home this time i think that i will stay for good because , now that i can see everything that i have right here in front of me i don't want to ever leave this beautyfull life that i'm living ever again. i am me and me is back thats the best part of my life i can see now that i have not' been here for the people that i love as i shold have been ,but thats not' going to happen ever again because i'm here now ,and i'm not' going anywhere again i love being back to my true self ,and i can see now that there is so much that i must catch up on i have lost so many things in the pest two years ,but i know now that what don't kill you only makes you stronger ,and now i plan on living this life each day at a time ,and just being happy with the one's that i love most the one's that have always been here the people that have never left my side you all are the reason that i came back ,and the reason that i'm so happy now because, you have opend my eye's and now i can see that no matter how baad things in this life may get everything will be alright ,and that i don't have to hide myself from the wrold anymore thats what i have been doing for some time now is hiding from everyone ,and everything ,but i will not' hide no more as i am now ,and forever truly FREE SPIRIT the one that will never give up again not' on love ,friends ,family or life I'm free to be me again and that feels great thanks everyone for makng me hang in there i could not' have mead this jurnery without any of you thank you so much
love free spirit la.
i know that it has been so long sense my last post ,and that most of you have already taken me off your friends list ,but i am kinda just writing this because i need to let everything out before i lose my mind ,and go insane over the hell that i have been through in the past three weeeks or so ,and i also know that no one really wants to here about it ,but as i said i must write now before its to late ,and i do something that i will end up regrting with my won life.my life in the last two weeks has been nothing ,but pure hell the one person that i thought i was going to spend the rest of my life with brock my heart in a way that even i am unable to explane at this poimt ? I am letting him go setting him free from the laif that i once wanted because i have found out that this is just not ' going to work for me i can not' handel being locked up traped or confined thats why i am moving on with my life its not'
because i don't love him anymore i will always love him ,but its easer for me to let him go instade of watching my self being tore down time ,and time again the way that it has been going though out the past year ?I have found someone elas ,but at this point am stille very ify about love because i don't want to be hurt that way again ,and am scared because this man is everuythig that i have ever dreamed about as a life long partner ,but not' really sure how to take all this comming at me at once? I am confuesed right now i had a job at mcdonalds ,but just quit today because the stress that i am undetr riht now is just about to couse me to have a mintal breack down ,and can't handel that i need to fill free ,and i do right now ,but also feel like a LOSSER BECAUSE I HAVE NO job as of today and need another one really soon ,but don't have the heart to tell my mother or grandmother because i don't want them to look at me as a felluer the way that everyone elas looks at me . if i am loosing anyone don't worry about it because right now i don't even know what i'm saying or why at this point right now i am in my whon little world hiding from the rest of the wrold ,and don't really want to come out in to the bright light just want to stay heded forever ,and never come back .
my last words of thought for the week are
life is what you make it to be ,and only you have the power to change what happens in your lifetime. It is only then that we can see the road in witch life has instore for us because, we our selfs as people are blinded by something more then light or darkness we are all at one point in our lives or another blinded by our self's ,and the only thing that can save us when we reach that point in our life is the lord I know i never write much about that at all ,but today i need to say that i thank god each ,and every day for helping me throug this life that without him standing by my side i could not' go on living a nother day.
hopoe laire
