My Baby's being retired from riding for now??

This is my mare Anny May ,and the other day she was diegnotst with bad artharidess in her back left foot ,and now i can't ride her very nuch anymore on long rides at all. So I'm going through a lot of mintal pain ,and that kind of shit right now at the moment ,and trying to deside what i should do about my life now that i have nothing to ride.

just something that i hold dear to my heart.

Take every day at a time as it comes to you. Always trying to move forword , and move on from the things in the past that have hurt you. and always remember to help others when you can , and lend someone your ear when they need someone to talk to . This is my own pheslofey on life , and the way that i live my life as i live in this wrold today.

Just going to write thought down today???

This is one of the only news storys that i have been flowoing ever sense i heard about this. This horse has the bigist heart that i have ever seen , and this also has to be the strongist horses that i have ever herd about in my intier life. They was saying that Babro would not' recover from his fall , but i knew that he would pull through in time because, that horse has so much going for him.

just something because i'm really bored right now.....

I'm just setting here watching the time pass me by ,and waiting for the right time to come when i can start my own new life ,and be happy with myself manly ,and that really bugges me because if your not' happy with your self then how can anyone eals be happy you . I mean this is just what i may sometimes think like at time's about my self ,and somethings around the world ,and right here in my very own state.

its another redneck pic of the day.

alright you might be a red neck if your going down the road ,and if you think that the highway sing is the speed lemit sing then you might be a red neck.

Its' A poem by me

As I walk throught this life ,and wonder what I have done to be so bleasd with so many people that love me so much I offten wonder if I have found these people on my own or if there has been someone from a higher power giding my to them? I'm stile to this day not' really sure ,but I can say that ether way I know that I'm luckey to have so many people like you in my life so good buy to all of you for now I will be back once again someday though am not sure when I'm takeing some time off to go on a mager thinking retrat for a good while ,and once i find what it is that I'm looking for i will be back i love you all
~THESHADOWWALKER~ Hope

Ok its another gussign game kari this one if for you

1.what is my favret drink that i wish i was dirnking right now??
2.what clolor is my eyes??
3.what is my favret food?
4.what is my favet thing to do??
5.what is the one thing that i love most in this world??
6.what is the year that i grgawted high school????
7.what is my the clolor of my truck???
8.do i ware boots of filpflps ????
9.do i like pink or black more???
10.what is the one thing that i can't stand being around???????????????????
11.why did i post this ???
12.will i post another game soon???

well i hope that you all have fun withthis one i can't wait to see the ansers good luck.

Here is my boyfriend ,and my's first photo with eachother

This was taken down at bald knob the first time we went out on the big truck together

its friday yep ie i oh

Today has been a good day so far after lastnight when i had a long talk with james ,and told him somethings about what i would ,and would not' put up with he has finally come to my why of thinking now. In other news i'm so glad to be home again i have been out on that truck for the past mounth or so ,and am so happy to sleep in my own bed once again. So far everything is going well i think?? I am so damm ready for james to stop wanting me right by his side all of the time I do love him with all my heart ,and i love him more then i have ever loved anyone ,but even i need some space once in awhile you know what i mean.

Here is a pic of my new baby

This is Deliah she is 1/2 german shapred 1/2 chow chow James my boyfriend got her for me ,and she is such a good dog even though she is only 3 mnts. old she makes every step that i make ,and know one strang can walk up to me ether she don't like that at all.

is there anything that i can do right???

Sometimes i feel that i can't do anything right ,and i try and try ,but its like i can't make anyone in my family happy. I am so damm sick ,and tired people trying to chang who i really am ,and not' only that ,but i'm also sick of people useing me and then throughing me away like i'm a pice of papper or something. I am just about ready to say the hell with it all ,and throgh in this tawil that want ever stay dry.
I'm sick of people telling me what i need to do with my life ,and who i can ,and can't be with ,and then trying to force me to choes betwen them ,and other people that i care about. I'm sick of being confind in this smill box that want let me out ,and i'm damm tired of people trying to breck my spirit . Right now all i want to do is get shit faced ,and then sleep for about 3weeks or maybe even more then that because,i'm so tired of trying to act like someone that i'm not ,and never will be. I don't know maybe i'm just really being a bitch today ,but i am so sick of telling everyone that everything is alright when most of the time its' not' I am sick of not' having a damm job ,and not' having any money to do anything with I think that i need to go back and talk to my sreank or something because i'm geting so ready to just move away ,and never look back on anything. I feel like i'm being ponished for something that i have no idea of what i did wrong with my life or where i fucked up ,and forgot to trun or if i even passed the socalled right road as my family seems to think ,and if i did pass it by ,and they can't see that i'm almost right where i want to be then i'm just sorry as hell for them because i am going to be who i am ,and that will never change.

Just some of the things that I can't stand

here are somethings that i can not' stand being around

1.Stupid people that can't drive
2.My family
3.my family
4.watching law ,and order
5.New Yark ,and or driving through there
6.people that ley to you all the time.
7.people that are always trying to hurt me.
8.driving a ford pos
9.seting around with no money for gas to go job hunting
10.gay people that hit on me
11.the war that is for no reason at all.
12.people trying to force me to chous sides
13.my brother
14.loud 18 weelers that hank at me

well i think that i better stop here before i get careded away with the way i think about somethings in this wrold.

Alright here is some of my art

Pleas don't run away this is stucky the aleian

What my boyfriend did to me today

After we got back down to bald knob today I had my mom come ,and pic me up then james said that he was going back home to jonesbro well then after I got home I called him to see where he was ,and if he was alright ?? I called him about 100 times ,and still could not' reach him ok now I'm starting to get worried about him. I did not' know if he had areack of if he mead it home or what?? ,but after the other day when my sister Kari reacked her truck I have been on eage because I hate hearing that somone I love has a reack so fanily after about 4 hours james calls me ,and Then i get on to him for screing the tottle shit out of me,and now he knows that when I call he damm well better pic up the damm phone.

Its already friday again

Lastnight I went out ,and started to work with my 3coalt that are way over due for training to start,and I desided to ride my two year old bay filley lastnight right before it got dark ,and she donw really well I road her around for about one hour in the yard bar back ,and she even trated around for a while ,and she did not' even bow up with me not' onece so I think that she is going to be one hell of a good mare when I'm done with her.

alright her is my next game.

Ok its another gussing game about me
do the best that you can ,and then I will give you your scor

1.What is my nic name that everyone calls me ?
2.What is my middle name is it

lane
augsta
jene
or alley

3. What day was I born on ?
4.How do you speel my last name is it
laire
larry
or larie good luck with this one?????

5. Where was I born ??
Batesville ar
heber springs ar
little rock ar
searcy ar

6.What's my favret horses name.????

7.Who is my to best friend's??

8.what is my sisters names??

well that is all i got not' much ,but this should take a while to get done have fun.

Here is some of my familys history

After going over to barn godesses site I thought that I would post something about my nativ blood.

As some of you may know I'm part nativ american Cherokee ,and mohack my grandmother on my dads side was almost full blood cherokee ,and my great great garnmother on my moms side was full blood cherokee ,and my garndmother on my moms side is part mohack. I don't remember very much about my dads mom ,but i do remember that she did look like a cherokee ,and now that I'm older I can see that much better now here is a pic of her ,and you may have seen this already ,but I thought that i would post it anyway . So when i think about I have more native in me then most people know. My great great garndmother was from mississippi ,and then they all moved down to Oklahomea .

A game

alright its time for me to post my first blog game are you ready ????

Ok its a gussing game see how many of these you can guss right

what is my favret clolor is it
1.red
2black
3.green
4.blue

next what is my favret movie is it

1.top gun
2.mask
3.moon strok
4.derty dancing

what is my favret books to red
1.love storys
2.horrer storys
3.drama storys
4.horse storys

alright last one ,and if you think you know me you should get this one

who is my most favret singer

1.big and rich
2.god smak
3.icp
4.acdc
5.green day
6.cher
7.selena
8.gorge strat

now then if you think you got these down then Email me your ansers at noangle_9@hotmail.com ,and i will tell you if you got these right have fun ,and good luck

Time as i see it?

There is a time for everything in life
I have learnd that there is only time as you go through life. only one time to be your self only one time to love ,and love truely only one time to be a kid only one time to be your self ,and only one time to live ,and one time to die ether way you look at time when you think about it all we have in life is only time.

What I have learnd about love /

If there's one thing that I have learnd about love its' that it will always snek up on you when your not' looking for it to. Thats what it done to me when i wasint looking for anyone I found the most kind ,and loveing man that I am so much in love with now .