thoughts about my last post .

I know that most people may think that because all this has come up that I'm a bod person ,but I wanted to say that I'm not' I only cahsed that check ,and started working with the company that sent it to me because I needed the money really bad ,and there was some things that I needed to take care of . I was only trying to get ahead on some bils ,but I can see now that instade of getting ahed I got scroed over big time ,and I kike myself now for being so damm stupid about everything . I wish now that i hadent of cahsed that check ,but at the same time I needed the money ,and thats where I messed up big time I wasent thinking about anything ,and now I have to fix this because its my mestace ,and only mine its up to me now to do what I can to get myself out of this . I know that I only have two options right now 1 is pay it all back in payments or 2 just go to jail for around 5 years ,but I will do one of the two because I will not' run I have learnd that running from your prublums just makes it worse on you so I am going to just think about what I can do about this for now.
I do hope that no one thinks I'm a bad perosn because I'm really not' I just wanted to help my family out with somethings thats all.

I'm still here for a while anyway?

well I'm back but I know that its been a long time sense I last posted ,and thats because there has been so many things going on around here ,and I am yet once again looking for work ? yeah I know it really sucks because I really did like the job its self ,but standing up starght for 8 hours a day was killing me so bad. I have had so maythings going on this past few weeks ,and most of it I can't say on here ,but I may not' able to blog for a while if I don't come up with at lest $4,000 dollars within the next 30 days I will be in jail ,and no I did not' kill anyone or stil anything I chashed a check that was sent to me through the us mail ,and I cashed it ,and then found out today that that check bounsed like a rubber boll ,and so now I have to pay all that money back ,and I don't have a job anymore I don't have any money so if yall don't see me around then you will know where I am ok. well anyway thats just about all thats been going on here other then the fact that I have had some people teartoing to kill me ,but thats just about everything that I have been dealing with I hope that you all are having a great week ,and I will post later on this week if i can .
hope

I'm back in the working game now

well starting tomorow morning I am going back to work so if ya'll don't see me around for the week you will know that I'm working hard all week long lol
I will still be posting though ,but it my only be on the weekends though sense I'm going to be working on 2nd shift five days a week now. anyway I hope that all ya'll are doing well I have to get ready for work in the morning so I will post about it later on this week to let you all know how its going .

I'm back for a while now.

Hey everyone sorry that I have not' been around latly ,but was out of town for X mas I hope that you all had a great one mine was great it was better then I could have asked for. I spent christmas with my boyfriends family ,and my own so it was really hacktic ,but a lot of fun. I hope that you all had a great one as well I am getting ready for this new year ,and was thinking about posting just a few of my reaolshon's for the big year of 2007 thats comming so soon. I can't belilve that its al ready here I was just now getting use to writing 2006 on everything lol.
anyway here I go again.

1 I hope to find a job

2 I hope to be able to spend more time with the people that I love .

3. I am hoping to work on my addotide thrd's other people like the ones that I don't really like being around ???????

4.I hope to be back in college by this comming spring or summer????

5. what I mostly want out of this new year is to be happy ,and live life to its' fullist that it can be ,and this one is also what I want for all of you as well so have a great save ,and happy new year with love hope.

My Home town "

I just thought that I would post a little something about my home town for ya'll today I was thinking about how I have posted about me ,family ,friend's ,my horses ,my life ,but I started thinking about posting about where my life all begain.
my life begain back on november the 10th 1986 in this very house that I am living in now. I was born in this house ,and so far no matter where I go I will alway's call this home . This town that I live in only has about 200 people living in it ,and the nerist walmart is almost an hour away so I live out in the middle of no where. There are only two stor's in the town of concord ,and nothing to do for fun ,but go riding on the horses ,or walking . The was once a dinner here ,and it had a pool table ,but they got rad of that so now there is nothing to do at all in concord. I have lived here in this same town now for 20 years ,and still nothing has ever changed. There is only one thing about this town that will never change ,and that is that every one know's everything about everyone ,and everything that goes on around this town. That can be a good thing ,and it can also be a bad thing because in a town like this one you alway's have to watch your back sense everyone know's what your doing all the time that's the part that really suck's about living here? I have learnd the very hard way that you can't ever trust the people in this town that say they are your friend's because they only want to help you when its' good for them ,and then when they don't need you in their life's anymore they will trun on you like a pit bull ,but thats just how I see it . Ok I'm dune bitching now have a great day everyone

"The Road"

The road was long ,and hard but it was a road that she knew she had to travel in order to have the life that she wanted.She alway's wondered what it would be like to have all the thing's that she had only seen in her derams, and if she would ever get the chance to reach out , and be something more then she was. She had a life already ,but she wanted to become more ,and she wanted to be somewhere elase she wanted to travel the wrold ,and go to all the place's that she had read about in book's.She alway's wanted to go to spain , Italy ,and all the other place's that she had heard about. She knew that this road was going to be very long ,and hard but she also knew that she would have to travel this road inorder to ever do all the thing's that she had only seen in her dream's.

~RUNNING HORSE~

The reason that I wrote this is to try ,and ecsplane how I see the thing's that I have done throughout my life ,and to try show other's that even if sometime's we may all have to make that chous at some pont in our live's or another , as I have done this myself I know how hard it can sometime's be Thats all I was trying to say does this make any sense to anyone ?

Thanking back to when I first started blogging ?

As I set here tonight ,and think about the very first post that I ever did I can't help ,but also think about the fact that I only had one person ,that came to my blog every day ,and that was kari ,but now I have so many of ya'll so many more then I ever would have thought. so I would just like to deadacte this post to all of you who come here every day ,and read my work ,and give me a reason to go on posting thank you all for comming by . When I had been a blogger for only a munth or so I was going to quit blogging ,but then you all come out nowhere so I just wanted to say thank you all for letting me know that I do have a good reason to keep on posting . I really want to say thank's to Kari for being the very first one to come over so this is to you kari I miss you ,and hope to see you back here in blogger land really soon my friend.

its' a pic that I twicked one day

This photo I took last summer ,and I got really bord one day so I mead just a few ajotment's to it ,but I like the way that it truned out .

This pic I Think really say's it all for everyone in the world.

ok I'm listing five song's that I like that are all new

1. I love you more ,but don't know who sing's it its' a country song?

2.lips' fo an angel by hender.

3.smack that by akon

4.we even lost super man by kenny rogger's

5.Chan hang low by the jibb's

ok that all the new song's that I have heard when I was sick so I thought that I would post about them .

OK I'm back now

I am doing so much better ,and am ready to get back to posting again .
It feel's good to be well again ,and be able to go hunting this afternoon I hope that I get that buck tonight so wish me luck ,and keep your finger's crossed ok.

"Life Goes On"

Life goes on sometim's wether we want it to or not' we can say that we wish we could go back in time ,and change thing's ,but we can't because life goes on. We can say how much we don't like letting go of thing's in life ,and that we wish our loved one's could still be here with us ,but we have to understand that life goes on. We may never understand when or why something in our live's is going to change ,and we may not ' want to see these thing happen ,but life does go on ,and we must all just take each ,and every day as it come's and be the happeist that we can be because life is much to short to be wast by alway's wondering why so many thing's have happend to us . Life goes on ,and so must we even if at times that is so hard to do we must go on liveing because its' what god want's us to do all we have to do is just take his hand ,and he will pull us through our bad time's . As life goes on so must we its' what we are ment to do.

Running Horse

I'm going to take a breack from posting untile monday

I AM feeling some better ,but I am just still not' feeling that great so I AM GOING to be in bed untile monday . I dident even get up today untile 3.pm I was up all night coughing ,and dident get much sleep. So I am going to eat me a nice big pot of soop ,and drink me some orong joic ,and hope that will help get better I think that I must have cought the bug thats going aroung or something I have been sick sense sunday ,but anyway I will be back on monday I am posting one new thing now ,and then will start posting again on monday so I hope you all have a great weekend ,and take care .

Here is another song that I really like

This song is called ONLY TIME "

Who can say where the road goes when the day flows only time.
who can say if your love grows as your heart chose only time.
Who can say why your sighs as your love flies only time , and who can say why your heart cries when your love lies only time.
Who can say where the roads meet that love might be in your heart , and who can say when the day sleep's if the night keeps all your heart night keep's all your heart that can if your love grows as your heart chose only time.
And who can say where the road goes where the day flows only time
Who can say only time
Who can say only time.

this song is by ENYA
I love this song because I feel that it is like a part of me because I am alway's the one to say that time has a way for everything ,and that there is a time for everything so in a way I can coneact myself with this song if that make's any sense at all.

alright its' my trune again lol

Last night before I went to bed I tagged Barngodess Rachial ,and Marty then Rachal Tagged me back with my own tagg today so here I go this is my list of 8 thing's that are my most favret memorys so here I go.



1. when I was 5 years old my Uncal would come down he was a mecanic ,and I would always be out helping him under the car. I was alway's spending time with him because he was like a father to me I miss him so much this is a thought that I have thought about in year's.


2.when I was seven my dad ,and oldist sister came up ,and I got' to see my dad that was only the thired time that I had ever seen him ,and he died just one munth after he was up visiting me I will always charish that memory for as long as I live.

3. The day that I killed my very first deer was on X(mas) day back in 2004 I was so happy not' only because I got one ,but because I mead a 162 yard shot I was so proud of my self that day.

4. when I was 15 I got to see CHer in conceart ,and I was only 2 row's from the stage that was so cool I will never forget that day I had so much fun .

5. when I was about 14 ,and I road a horse for the very first time ,and I was so happy to know that I could do it ,and not' fall off lol

6. The day that my sister got merried I will forever faver this one because that was the only time that me ,and her really talked about each other ,and even though that I don't like pink I was so happy that I was envolved in the wedding that ment more to me then she will ever know.

7.One day while I was in school a guy boght me a 15lb hershise kisses ,and asked me to be his valintine now how coudl I have said no that was a very big pice of chaclet for me ,and that was so sweet of him ,but in the end we are still very good friend's to this day.

8.alright last but not' lest my most favret one of all is the day that my Colt was born Angel was born on my father's birthday ,and people say that I'm crazy ,but I belilve that my dad sent here to me letting me know that every thing will be alright . Ok thats my list of eight now I'm not' going to tagged anyone elase with this one ,but maybe later on I will come up with a good one for ya'll .

I am Tagging ?

I am tagging

Barngoduess
Marty
Rachil

so if your name is on this list have fun .........

I just thought that before I go off to bed that I would tagged some of yall'

ok I have never tagged anyone ,but I'm the one tagging now so I want ya'll to make a list of 8 thing's that you would conseder to be some of your most favret memory's ,and then you get to tagged who ever you want ,but if you don't want to tagg anyone that's ok to. to thouse of you that I am tagging I'm comming for you right now have fun this may not' be the best tagg that you have ever seen ,but its' also My first one so have fun ,and here I come.

My Baby Girl

This is Sophia's moon light Angel
she was born on march the 7th the same day as my father's birthday so that's why I call her angel because I belilve that she was sent to me from my father.

The Cloud's after a bad storm.

I took this one when I was going hunting last year ,but I never mead out deer hunting because I was cought staring at these cloud's for about an hour.

here's some more pic's to look at that I took

hey everyone sense I am not' feeling to well I just thought that I would post some photo's for now sense I don't feel like writing any poetry tonight I'm just going to let you all look at the pic's that I have taken this year ok . When I feel like it I will start posting poetry again ,but untile then here is my pic's for the day.