I'm back for a while now.

Hey everyone sorry that I have not' been around latly ,but was out of town for X mas I hope that you all had a great one mine was great it was better then I could have asked for. I spent christmas with my boyfriends family ,and my own so it was really hacktic ,but a lot of fun. I hope that you all had a great one as well I am getting ready for this new year ,and was thinking about posting just a few of my reaolshon's for the big year of 2007 thats comming so soon. I can't belilve that its al ready here I was just now getting use to writing 2006 on everything lol.
anyway here I go again.

1 I hope to find a job

2 I hope to be able to spend more time with the people that I love .

3. I am hoping to work on my addotide thrd's other people like the ones that I don't really like being around ???????

4.I hope to be back in college by this comming spring or summer????

5. what I mostly want out of this new year is to be happy ,and live life to its' fullist that it can be ,and this one is also what I want for all of you as well so have a great save ,and happy new year with love hope.

My Home town "

I just thought that I would post a little something about my home town for ya'll today I was thinking about how I have posted about me ,family ,friend's ,my horses ,my life ,but I started thinking about posting about where my life all begain.
my life begain back on november the 10th 1986 in this very house that I am living in now. I was born in this house ,and so far no matter where I go I will alway's call this home . This town that I live in only has about 200 people living in it ,and the nerist walmart is almost an hour away so I live out in the middle of no where. There are only two stor's in the town of concord ,and nothing to do for fun ,but go riding on the horses ,or walking . The was once a dinner here ,and it had a pool table ,but they got rad of that so now there is nothing to do at all in concord. I have lived here in this same town now for 20 years ,and still nothing has ever changed. There is only one thing about this town that will never change ,and that is that every one know's everything about everyone ,and everything that goes on around this town. That can be a good thing ,and it can also be a bad thing because in a town like this one you alway's have to watch your back sense everyone know's what your doing all the time that's the part that really suck's about living here? I have learnd the very hard way that you can't ever trust the people in this town that say they are your friend's because they only want to help you when its' good for them ,and then when they don't need you in their life's anymore they will trun on you like a pit bull ,but thats just how I see it . Ok I'm dune bitching now have a great day everyone

"The Road"

The road was long ,and hard but it was a road that she knew she had to travel in order to have the life that she wanted.She alway's wondered what it would be like to have all the thing's that she had only seen in her derams, and if she would ever get the chance to reach out , and be something more then she was. She had a life already ,but she wanted to become more ,and she wanted to be somewhere elase she wanted to travel the wrold ,and go to all the place's that she had read about in book's.She alway's wanted to go to spain , Italy ,and all the other place's that she had heard about. She knew that this road was going to be very long ,and hard but she also knew that she would have to travel this road inorder to ever do all the thing's that she had only seen in her dream's.

~RUNNING HORSE~

The reason that I wrote this is to try ,and ecsplane how I see the thing's that I have done throughout my life ,and to try show other's that even if sometime's we may all have to make that chous at some pont in our live's or another , as I have done this myself I know how hard it can sometime's be Thats all I was trying to say does this make any sense to anyone ?

Thanking back to when I first started blogging ?

As I set here tonight ,and think about the very first post that I ever did I can't help ,but also think about the fact that I only had one person ,that came to my blog every day ,and that was kari ,but now I have so many of ya'll so many more then I ever would have thought. so I would just like to deadacte this post to all of you who come here every day ,and read my work ,and give me a reason to go on posting thank you all for comming by . When I had been a blogger for only a munth or so I was going to quit blogging ,but then you all come out nowhere so I just wanted to say thank you all for letting me know that I do have a good reason to keep on posting . I really want to say thank's to Kari for being the very first one to come over so this is to you kari I miss you ,and hope to see you back here in blogger land really soon my friend.

its' a pic that I twicked one day

This photo I took last summer ,and I got really bord one day so I mead just a few ajotment's to it ,but I like the way that it truned out .

This pic I Think really say's it all for everyone in the world.

ok I'm listing five song's that I like that are all new

1. I love you more ,but don't know who sing's it its' a country song?

2.lips' fo an angel by hender.

3.smack that by akon

4.we even lost super man by kenny rogger's

5.Chan hang low by the jibb's

ok that all the new song's that I have heard when I was sick so I thought that I would post about them .

OK I'm back now

I am doing so much better ,and am ready to get back to posting again .
It feel's good to be well again ,and be able to go hunting this afternoon I hope that I get that buck tonight so wish me luck ,and keep your finger's crossed ok.

"Life Goes On"

Life goes on sometim's wether we want it to or not' we can say that we wish we could go back in time ,and change thing's ,but we can't because life goes on. We can say how much we don't like letting go of thing's in life ,and that we wish our loved one's could still be here with us ,but we have to understand that life goes on. We may never understand when or why something in our live's is going to change ,and we may not ' want to see these thing happen ,but life does go on ,and we must all just take each ,and every day as it come's and be the happeist that we can be because life is much to short to be wast by alway's wondering why so many thing's have happend to us . Life goes on ,and so must we even if at times that is so hard to do we must go on liveing because its' what god want's us to do all we have to do is just take his hand ,and he will pull us through our bad time's . As life goes on so must we its' what we are ment to do.

Running Horse

I'm going to take a breack from posting untile monday

I AM feeling some better ,but I am just still not' feeling that great so I AM GOING to be in bed untile monday . I dident even get up today untile 3.pm I was up all night coughing ,and dident get much sleep. So I am going to eat me a nice big pot of soop ,and drink me some orong joic ,and hope that will help get better I think that I must have cought the bug thats going aroung or something I have been sick sense sunday ,but anyway I will be back on monday I am posting one new thing now ,and then will start posting again on monday so I hope you all have a great weekend ,and take care .

Here is another song that I really like

This song is called ONLY TIME "

Who can say where the road goes when the day flows only time.
who can say if your love grows as your heart chose only time.
Who can say why your sighs as your love flies only time , and who can say why your heart cries when your love lies only time.
Who can say where the roads meet that love might be in your heart , and who can say when the day sleep's if the night keeps all your heart night keep's all your heart that can if your love grows as your heart chose only time.
And who can say where the road goes where the day flows only time
Who can say only time
Who can say only time.

this song is by ENYA
I love this song because I feel that it is like a part of me because I am alway's the one to say that time has a way for everything ,and that there is a time for everything so in a way I can coneact myself with this song if that make's any sense at all.

alright its' my trune again lol

Last night before I went to bed I tagged Barngodess Rachial ,and Marty then Rachal Tagged me back with my own tagg today so here I go this is my list of 8 thing's that are my most favret memorys so here I go.



1. when I was 5 years old my Uncal would come down he was a mecanic ,and I would always be out helping him under the car. I was alway's spending time with him because he was like a father to me I miss him so much this is a thought that I have thought about in year's.


2.when I was seven my dad ,and oldist sister came up ,and I got' to see my dad that was only the thired time that I had ever seen him ,and he died just one munth after he was up visiting me I will always charish that memory for as long as I live.

3. The day that I killed my very first deer was on X(mas) day back in 2004 I was so happy not' only because I got one ,but because I mead a 162 yard shot I was so proud of my self that day.

4. when I was 15 I got to see CHer in conceart ,and I was only 2 row's from the stage that was so cool I will never forget that day I had so much fun .

5. when I was about 14 ,and I road a horse for the very first time ,and I was so happy to know that I could do it ,and not' fall off lol

6. The day that my sister got merried I will forever faver this one because that was the only time that me ,and her really talked about each other ,and even though that I don't like pink I was so happy that I was envolved in the wedding that ment more to me then she will ever know.

7.One day while I was in school a guy boght me a 15lb hershise kisses ,and asked me to be his valintine now how coudl I have said no that was a very big pice of chaclet for me ,and that was so sweet of him ,but in the end we are still very good friend's to this day.

8.alright last but not' lest my most favret one of all is the day that my Colt was born Angel was born on my father's birthday ,and people say that I'm crazy ,but I belilve that my dad sent here to me letting me know that every thing will be alright . Ok thats my list of eight now I'm not' going to tagged anyone elase with this one ,but maybe later on I will come up with a good one for ya'll .

I am Tagging ?

I am tagging

Barngoduess
Marty
Rachil

so if your name is on this list have fun .........

I just thought that before I go off to bed that I would tagged some of yall'

ok I have never tagged anyone ,but I'm the one tagging now so I want ya'll to make a list of 8 thing's that you would conseder to be some of your most favret memory's ,and then you get to tagged who ever you want ,but if you don't want to tagg anyone that's ok to. to thouse of you that I am tagging I'm comming for you right now have fun this may not' be the best tagg that you have ever seen ,but its' also My first one so have fun ,and here I come.

My Baby Girl

This is Sophia's moon light Angel
she was born on march the 7th the same day as my father's birthday so that's why I call her angel because I belilve that she was sent to me from my father.

The Cloud's after a bad storm.

I took this one when I was going hunting last year ,but I never mead out deer hunting because I was cought staring at these cloud's for about an hour.

here's some more pic's to look at that I took

hey everyone sense I am not' feeling to well I just thought that I would post some photo's for now sense I don't feel like writing any poetry tonight I'm just going to let you all look at the pic's that I have taken this year ok . When I feel like it I will start posting poetry again ,but untile then here is my pic's for the day.

I have been tagged BY Barngoddess so here I go.

Barndoddess tagged me with 6 thing's that are wired about me like her I also have a long list of thing's that most people conseder to be wired of me ,but I will post the one's that even I find wired ok.

1. I love Smaling of freash deer blood after I kille one.

2. I talk to my self a lot when I'm buliding something ,but this only happen's when I 'm working with wood don't know why?

3. I love getting greas on my hand's ,and elboe's from working underneth the truck.

4.I like eating Carker's ,and Icecream together .

5. I am afread of stuffed deer head's on the wall ,but yet I can hunt I know that's a wired even I think so .

6. When I get up in the morning the first thing that I do is tell people not' to talk to me untile I deside if I want to be in a good mood or not' then thats if I have my Mouten dew first thing in the morning. I'm so not' a morning person ,but more of the night life tyip that's all.

well I mead it through thank god I was about to worry there for a sec ,but I mead it that was really fun now I'm going go off to town ,and do some shoping .

This is what A true Friend is "

I have been reading ,and seeing a lot of thing's this past week ,and I have been doing a lot of thinking about this ,and what I have desided is that there are not' very many people left out there that you can call your friend as I thought about this I desided to post what I think a real friend should be ? I belilve that a person can have friend's ,best friend's but you really only have friend's if there true friend's ,and that is something that is still out there ,but finding them is so hard these day's? To me the way that I see it is that a friend will be there sometime's for you ,but A real true friend will alway's be there for you when you need them the most .Have any of you ever heard that new country song that is call YOU FIND OUT WHO YOUR FRIEND'S ARE ?? I love that song it is so true ,and strat to the pont. I have learnd the hard way that some people are there only when it's for their beonfet only ,and then there is the one's that are alway's there no matter what I have been blessed as far as that goes' I have found many friend's that are true one's ,but also the one's that where only there because they wanted something from me . so I f there is one thing that I can say to make sense out of what I have said it is this . You find out who your true friend's are ,and when you find people that are like this you need to hold on to them because that Is something that is getting harder ,and harder to find these day's . I have also been seeing where many people have been hurting other's on there own blog's ,and other thing's I am not' one of thouse people I only try to help other's ,and never once have I ever saked anything in retruen from anyone that I have ever met before. I mind my own bisunss ,and wish that other people could sometime's do the same I keep my openoun to my self most of the time so that no one's feeling's ever get hurt ,and so that everyone goe's home happy anyway I just wanted to post something , but I don't know really why I posted this I guess maybe because I wanted you all to know what kind of person that I am on the inside I am alway's the way that I am ,and some people may not' like that but I am who I am ,and every one elase is who they are so why can't everyone just get along is what I would like to know ??
Ok I'm done about that for good now I just had to get this off my chist have a great day everyone.

Sense its' almost Cristmoese I would post about family so here I go

This was also taken at my sister's wedding this is one of my most favret one's because it has all of us girl's in it . On left my oldist sister Debbie next to here My little shadow my nece then the beatyfull bride my sister whitney ,and then you guessed it me ,and then our couen Brook . But as you all may know I hate pink really hate it ,but this was what my sister mead me where sense I was the mead of hounr ack??lol This is the only time that anyone has ever seen me in pink because I don't like this cololr at all ,but then again don't know why either? The really funny thing is that all of us that are in this photo are more the camo tipe people not' the dress wareing tipe lol ,but on very specill day's you might see me all dressted up ha ha but don't hold your breath for to long only when we have to lol.

More photo's I have nothing to do so I 'm blogging all day long?

This is how I feel this year about hunting you set ,and you wait but you never see anything untile you trun your head? I had an 8 pont that came right up lastnight about 20 yard's right in front' of me ,but when I coked my gun he took off only leaving me the sight of his big white tell waving goodbye. That is alright though because boe season is still open untile feb, and I will get him then maybe I hope so anyway I have been watching this deer for about 2year's now ,and its' time to brang him in I think .

It's another one of my pic's that was taken lastyear in decmber.

This is red this photo was taken last wenter around december I love this one because I got the snow in the pic as it was falling down from the sky.

I got this thing to working right again thank god now I can post my pic's again.

This is My nece Danyeal
This photo was taken at my sister's wedding back in arpil of this year. don't she look quti she was the gust book keeper ,and the right hand person that was helping me with the decoration's for the wedding. This child never seese to amaze me she was born way before her time I think even though she is only 8 she act's more like she is my age lol well anyway I thought that I would just share this with you ,and let you all see a part of my life that I always talk about ,but never show ya'll so I hope that you like this.

bloger is being an asswhole today

this blogger is not' working for anything it took away the add photo for the post thing, and now I can't post photos anymore I don't know what to do either about this ?? can anyone help me fix this thing ???

for james lee the love of my life

Everything To Lose This I say Unto You
I have most everything to lose ,but when I look at you I can see that everything that I will lose is farily brand new. Everything that I have to give unto you is the one thing that I hold forever dear ,and true my heart is what I wish to give unto you. I wish to give unto you the gift of my love ,and trust for that one day you will be able to see that this of witch I say unto you is very true. I wish to give unto you my body ,soul mind ,and spirit for this I say unto you is most dear ,and true . I wish to give unto you my hand to guid you through this dark time in the road one of witch I say unto you is most dear ,and true. I wish to give unto you my word of Loyalty that is of all most Greatness that I wish for you to me in ,and help you when you feeling bule this I say unto you is most dear ,and true. I wish to give unto you the day of nothing ,but light and good this I say unto you is my one wish to you for you to be happy ,and free and to live a long ,and happy life and all this that I say unto you is what I hold most dear ,and true you are what I hold most dear ,and true its' because you are the love of my life that this I say unto you is most dear ,and true.

I wrote this for the only man that I could ever love ,and I know that it might sound a little bit more loveign then anything that I have ever posted before but just bear with me pleas.

Part of the song liric's to my all time favret song.

I was walking home from school on a cold wenterts day I took a short cut through the woods ,and lost my way it was getting late I was scard ,and alone but then a kind old man took my hand ,and led me home oh momma couldent see him oh ,but he was standing there I knew in my heart he was the anwser to my prare 's
Oh I belilve there are angels amoge us sent down to us from somewhere up above they come to you ,and me in our darkist hour's to show us how live teach us how to give to gide us with the light of love.

this is my oldist ,but most favret song ever because I do belilve that there are angels that walk right here on earth beside us at all time's throughout our live's.

its' a brand new one for ya'll. I'm nervas

NEVER STOP BELIEVING IN THING'S.
Never stop believing in life.
Never stop believing in love
Never stop believing in trust
Never stop believing in truth
Never stop believing in freedumb
Never stop believing in fath
Never stop believing in houosty
Never stop believing in family
Never stop believing in friend's
Never stop believing in the one that you love most
Never stop believing in yourself
Never stop believing in God
If we all stoped believing in this thing's where would we be?
The two most Imporotont thing's to always believ in are god ,and yourself
Believ in god for if it was not' for him you would not' be able to belilve in youself or anything elase on this list ? if we did stop beliving in these thing's we would not' have a reason to live anymore I belive in all these thing's very much so .
I belive in thing's that I can and can not' see but manly I belilve in god for giving me all other thing's in this life that I have ,and for life its' self I thnk him ,and only him for always being here by my side the way that he has been throughout my whole life.

I wrote this one when I was in New Yark City setting by the rall road trak's I hope that ya'll like it ,and that it don't bore you to much.

"I AM WHO I AM "

I am who I am ,and I know that latly I have not' been my self ,but I'm starting to get back the old me . I am ready to start doing all the thing's that I love most in this world ,riding my horses,writing,singing ,dancing ,and what ever elase that I want to do because, I have just now remembered that I had forgot about my self ,and the thing's that I love for to long. now its' time for me to be me again ,and that's what I'm going to do because I know who I am ,and from now on if people don't like that then they don't have to stick around because I'm not' going to change the real me I am happy just the way that I am ,and thats' being the kind hearted loving careing person that I am ,and will alway's be for as long as I live . Have a blasting great weekend everyone I'm going deer hunting for the rest of the week I need that ya I ant done that in a very long time now ,and its' time that the old me come's back out.
Have a great day.

"The Part of me That Liy's Beneth"

The Real me is a some what kind sweet harted person that will halp just about anyone that is in need. I would gladly give someone the shert off my own back even if that ment me frzzing to death. I would give my own life to save the life of a child or a person that I love. I am that person that is driving down the road ,and see's a car rack ,and stops to help the people that are in side of that car still.
When people ask me what kind of person that I am I mostly tell them that I'm very cold hearted ,but that really ant true In fact I'm right the oppsit I guess I don't like seeing people get hurt ,and I don't like hurting other people's feeling's eather . well that's all I'm posting about that
I can't belelve that I posted this well maybe you all want' make to much fun of me for this one.

Rolling "

Rolling down the road we are alway's rolling we never stop ,and never once get to rest when we are rolling down the long dark road in the truck.

Rolling once we start we don't stop from sun up tile sun down we go ,and go alway's saying go faster go faster I can't stand sitting still we must keep on rolling so that I don't loes my mind. As I keep on rolling donw the road I can't help but look at all the thing's in this world that I'm missing by just rolling by them ,and never once stoping to see the real beauty that liy's inside . Maybe one day I can stop running ,and rolling down all these dark long ,and cold road's?

Running Horse'

Thanksgiving from hell""

I spent my thanksgiving stranded out in oklahoma on the truck because my boyfriend's boss is the ass whole from hell. I cryed all day that day because, my grandmother was crying because I was not' here for thanksgiving with them. I feel so lost right now ,and not' really sure what to do with myself ??? Right now I just want to crall up in a cold dark whole ,and stay there for the rest of the year.
I'm sorry yall I 'm just not' my self right now ,but I'm going to post some new poetry now so maybe I will feel better about myself.???

I'm going away for a while .

Hey Guy's sorry that i have not' been here for a while ,but I am going out on the truck with my boyfriend I needed a big breack. So I will be back in about two week's or so ? Thank you all for the kind word's it really mean's the world to me that you all care so much. And when i get back i will be posting lot's ,and lot's of new poetry for you to read. And Red dirt girl there is a side of me that not' many people don't know about. I will post something about that later on just to give ya'll a smile sneek pek into my soule???? well got to go have a great two week's everyone see you all when I get back.

Hope

Here is something's that I know ya'll don't know about me.

After stopping by over at barngoddess site I thought that I would post something's about me that you don't know.

1 I have not' one ,but four name's altogether with my two middle names.

2.I am the baby of five children.

3. my mother ,and grandmother raised me alone with no help.

4.I love whereing the clolor black all the time.

5.I love the clolor red more then any other.

6. I hate the cololr pink with a passion.

7.I don't like being around people that are dead ,and will not' go to a fenral home at all because they tottaly freack me out.

8. I atedded theatre class in college ,and passed that class an a+

9. I was once a drag raser ,but I quit because I seen someone that I was very close to die one night ,but I will post about that later .

10. I like to watch Genarl Hospital every day that I have time.

11. I gragewited in the top 3 of my class in head start .

12. I got over an 700 on my ged test.

13. It took me 18 munth's to get my ged ,and that was with going all the way back to headstart ....

14. Some people call me joey .

15.I have never been in jall before ,but there was something's that I did when I was younger that if I had been cought I would be in preson right now ,but I'm not' that person anymore.

16. I sleep with a white teddy bear at night when I'm stick .

17. I was once in a gang at one pont in my life.

18.I am good at singing ,and acting I love both .

19. I love looking at black roeses even though they freak my family out.

20. I still watch the movie bambe ,and the sound of music.

21. I have Ocd

22. I love standing outside in the middle of a lighting storm .

23. I am a child magnet ,but still to this day don't know why??

24. I come from a family that has more then 500 member's in it that are still living today.

25.I like to go hunting with my nife.

26.I can name every cher song ,and every movie that she was in.

27. I can qutie every line from every movie that I have ever watched in my life.

28. My father's name was sid ,and I have a cousen named Fuzzey .

29.I have never tried drug's in my life.

30. I love gun's any ,and every kind.

31.I like to colact rock's ,and nifghfe's

32. I have killed 4 deer in the last 3 year's .

33. I love to well never mind.

alright that is all that I can post about me because the rest of my life ,and the thing's in it is way to long ,and personal so I hope that I don't bore ya'll to much with this well I'm off to post some more poetry now.

it's another post about my family tree.

Ya'll may not' know this about me so I thought that I would share with you some of my most favret memoris about growing up here in arkansas.

I can remember back when I was about that is when I got my very first nic name ,and that was Eag 2 that is what my Uncal called me ,and now he called "I Will" but I don't know why??

On my 14th birth day I can still remember that day like it was yesterday because that is the day that I got my first horse his name is ben ,and I still have him to this day .

One day about 3 years ago I desided to take off on my horse ,and go for a long ride to clear my head ,and when I did I was gone for two whole day's ,and the funny part is that I don't even remember where I went I think that I was just trying to get as far away as Fast as I could.

On this very day 2year's ago I met my nece Danell for the very frist time ,and when she met me ever sense that day she has alway's been telling me that I am her most favret aunt.

At this time last year was really the first time that I really got to know my oldist sister untile that day I had only seen my sister about 10 time's in 18 years of my life,and that is one day that I will forever charish for as long as I live.

My frist Chismouss was last year ,and yes I know that sound's kinda funny ,but my family don't belilve in it ,but last year I started belilveing I was at my sister's house when I had my first one ,and there is just something about watching the family decorat the tree it just does something to a person.

well I think that I have said to much already ,but I couldnot' think of anything elasc to post.

Why Must I feel so much "

As I go throughout this life I can't help ,but wonder why I must feel so much that goes on around me.

Why must I alway's love so truley ,and pruely
Why must I been the one that care's so much about other's feeling's ,and not' my own?
Why must I alway's feel that I'm alway's talking to my self?
Why must I alway's fall in love with the wrong guy's ?
Why must I alway's feel pain ,and not' only my own but other's pain as well.
Why must I alway's be the one to see thing's before they happen?
Why must I be forced to see only good thing's in my life ,and not' the bad?
Why must I alway's Try ,and help the poeple that I love ,and put them first before my self?
Why must I set here at night ,and cry ?
Why must my horse be ill?
Why must my truck always breack down on me ?
Why must I be here in this place that I can no longer stand?
Why must the people that I love alway's hurt me so badly?
Why must I even blog about this ?

I don't know where or why I posted this I guess I just needed to vet for a while? I am sorry about that ,but sometime's writing is the only way for me ecspase my self ,and feel better when I am not' sure why I'm feeling like this. Ok now I'm going to stop bitching about my life ,and try to post of poetry.

I don't really know what to post about today?

I am just not' thinking right today or something I have been out all week loading ,and holing hay yesterday I hand loaded about 300 bale's or so ,and when I got back home I was so tired ,and ready to go straght to bed. I know that I have not' been posting latly as much I uesto ,but I have not' been sleeping at night ,and I don't know why?? Today I feel like my who life is trying to fall apart on me ,and it feel's that there is nothing that I can do to stop it. I am madly in love with someone ,and we have been talking about the big M word ,but I'm still waiting on him to ask me ,but it is so hard right now because I'm begining to wonder if I am ever going to get a ring fromt that man? Its' like this ok I know that he is the one that I want to spend the rest of life with. But he tell's me the same thing all the time ,but that's all he has done is just talk ,and everytime that I ask him if he is sure that he want's to be with me he never awser's my qustion who is ? Does anyone ever really understand men anyway???? I know that I sure don't I think maybe that I should just tell him that untile he can make up his mind that we should be apart for a while what do you think???? I know that I'm sick ,and tired of waiting on something that may never come around.

Here is my philahophiy on life"

Take each day as it come's to you
Alway's remembering to enjoy the time's that you spend with the one's that you love most.
Try not' to let little thing's like fighting come beween you ,and your family for when everything is said ,and done they are still going to be your family ,and the one's that love you most.
Try to just enjoy life its' self ,and not' what it has put you through ,Try to alway's leans a loving hand to thoues who need you most ,and let them know that you are alway's going to there for them when they need you the most in their life.
I try to not' let a singal day go by with out telling the most importont people in my life that I love them Because I have learnd the very hard way that life is short,and we never really know witch day that come's will be our last.

Here is a pic of me ,my mom,and my sister.
I love this pic because its' one of only two photo's where none of us was fighting with eachother ,and it was taken when I got to go for my first CHER conceart that was so cool.

THE WORLD"

The World""
This world that we live in is the very thing that makes us who we are
with the good ,and the bad thing's that we must sometime's go through the only that we do is embrace it with all are might. And for everything that it places within our path we all somehow find our own way around these opstcil's one way or another at one pont in our live's. Even though we all do this so diffrently ,but yet in so many way's the same. We are given the chouse to take this life that we live ,and see only the bad or we can look at both the good ,and the bad thing's because we have to deal with both of them each ,and every day of our live's. I chouse to see only the good in other people ,but even though sometime's people tell me that I should not' be so kind hearted ,and careing about other's I just look them in the eye ,and say to them What do you want me to do about it I am who I am in this world ,and in the next I will be the same person that I am today because I am who I am ,and noone can ever change that If I could I wouldent because I am heppy being me because I know what I am here for.

What I call a good day filled with nothing ,but fun.

This past saterday I went down to my sister's house for a holloween party that I my nice was throwing ,and I got to finally met my other nice's ,and nehfew's ,and now I know all of my family ,and to me that's really cool because I have found out this past weekend that they all think that I'm the collist aunt in the whole wide world ,and that really make's me feel good. My oldist Nice is 32 then it goes like this 32,28,15,10,9,8,8,and then the youngist one is 7 munth's old now ,and saterday was the first time that I met him ,and he is just so sweet he craled all the way arouss the living room floor to get to me so I just had to hold him even he love's me already ,but the really said part is that I am so afread that if I ever have any children of my own that I would be a bad mother I mean I have never met a kid that didnot' like me so what do you think?? do you think that I would be a bad mom someday??

My love ,and my life"

This is my heart ,my soule ,and every minint of my entire life this is what make's my day so bright ,and happy so full of life ,and loughfter ,and joy this is my love ,and my entirer whole world ,and my life .

this is me "

This is me alway's runing fancy ,and free I have been told by many people that I have the spirit of a wild horse because I am always moving ,and am hardly ever still for more then a minit. My best friend ,and blood sister Idea gave me that name as my Indean name she said that she gave me this name because I have a very free spirit ,and a prue heart ,and that my spirit could never be brocken. So I say this only once THis is my the real me that not' very many people get to see this is me I am the spirit of a wild horse always running fancy ,and free Because I am the free spirit of my land.

here is one of my really spooky story's that happened to me one time.

Back about five years ago I was going hunting with my Sister ,and my cusen ,and my cousen ,and sister had left me behind to go to the other stand ,and it was almost getting dark out side . My cousen was having a really hard time that weekend ,and as I was setting there on the grand by a big red oak tree I heard something moving torwd's me from behind ,and I truned around ,and I seen my anual walking to me ,and he was telling me that he wanted me to keep a cloes eye on my cousen J because he was afread that he was going to do something really very stupid so I said ok I would . Well that night after we got back from hunting J wanted to go over to get some beer ,and I told my mother that I had to go with him my mom said why I told her that I just knew that I had to go with him. And so we went to the liqer store after we got back home that night J got really drunk ,and starting doing some really stupid thing's he went in to my house ,and got the 12gadge shot gun ,and set down in the floor he then put the barl of the gun in his mouth ,and was going to pull the tirger my mom ,and my sister was both trying to take the gun away from him ,but evertime that they would get cloes to him he would put the gun forther in his mouth . I just set there for about five mimnent's or so ,and then I finally went over to him ,and I told him I said your dad would not' want you to be acting like this ,and I think that you know that. He then took the gun out of his mouth ,and haded it to me he was in shock that I dident try to take it away from him ,and that's why he just gave up and gave it to me.
Alright for the really wired part of the story now
my cousen had been fighting with him self for about three years at that time the reason being is that he felt geltey because he did not' go ,and see his father when he was in the hospital ,and he was blaming himself because he was not' being man eunghf to take that seeing his dad in there the way that he was. Ok now for the really spooky part of this story
My Uncal had died just three years to the day before that night ,and yes this is a true story I mean that this really did happen to me ,and to this day J still does not' know why I knew what to tell him that night to make him put the gun down ,and I am not' sure if I will ever tell him , but he told me later on that same year that he had no Iday why I was the only person that would listion to about that night ,and about what he was going to do.

its' going to be another long week out here for me.

Tonight I am going to me very first Hollween party ,and will be gone all night then on sunday I have to go work on some old fice's that need to be fixed.then on wensday I have to go pic up my friend's horse tralier because on next friday I am going to be helping the college put on a hollween show for the kid's. I get to be the headluss horse man , and so I have to take my horses with me this could be really danogerse though because my horses have never been around that many people before in there life. So it could be really interasting for me , and my other rider ?? but I think that it will all go down just fine I know how my horses are , and I think that they will have fun helping me with this show. And besides I need to get out of the house anyway. so everyone wish me luck ok , and I will post on saterday how thing's went at the college alright , and if I don't post anything on saterday then you will know that I got really badly hurt lol.

This exsplanes the name of my blog.

I am one who walk's in the shadow's I will always see you , but you will never see me.
I can walk right up to you ,and talk to you ,but as soon as your not' looking I will dessapir , and you will never see me again. I will see you passing by on the street , but you will never remember my face, and that's why I am called by many people the shadow walker you want ever know that I'm around unless I want you to know . I can come ,and go as I pleas with out anyone ever knowing that I'm nere. I live my whole life as a shadow hovering over this wrold the reason being that I am always watching , and always waiting for something to happen I am always there to help other's when they need me most , and then after I have done my part I leve , and that person will never see me again because I am the shadow walker that walke's amoung us watching over the rest of us.

I will post a story for ya'll later ,and I hope that ya'll don't think I'm a freak or anything , but this is how I see thing's.

"What is Love"

What is love " some say that love is blind some say that love will always remane some say that love is true some say that love is corle . some say that love is a gift from god ,some say that love is a curse some might even say that love make's then want to die. And some people say that they need love to servive .Ether way love is love , and no one know's how or what it is or where it is , but we do all know this love is love.

"Running Horse"

Ok it's another one of my poems for you.

This one is called "Live as if you have never live'd before"


ANOTHER YEAR HAS ALREADY COME , AND GONE
ANOTHER SPRING HAS ALREADY PAST.
ANOTHER SUMMER HAS ALREADY GONE BAD.
ANOTHER FALL HAS ALREADY FALLEN.
ANOTHER WHENTER IS ALMOST HERE.
ANOTHER DAY TO START A BRAND NEW YEAR.
TO LIVE AS IF YOU HAVE NEVER LIVED' IS TO TAKE THIS NEW YEAR , AND START LIVING LIFE WITH A WHOL NEW BEGNING A CHANSE TO BE WITH THE ONE YOU LOVE MOST. THE CHANCE TO TO START OVER IN A NEW PLACE . TAKE THIS NEW YEAR TO PROSPER , AND TO LIVE AS IF YOU HAVE NEVER LIVED BEFORE.

I wrote this for a very good friend of mine that was going through a really hard time , and I don't always know how or even why I write , but I do know that it feel's right to me.

I'm so proud of this ltiile one.

This is Kari's little Girl , and I am so proud of her today this little one won her very first belt buckal On Pasty the poney that she got back in Jully . I am just so very happy , and proud of my Nice , and I know that she is going to win many many more as she goes on to be one of the best barll racing cowgirl's in the state of Arkansas . Can you tell that i'm really happy right now , and so proud ?? I can't help it when I got that call you would swar that it was me that won that buckal.

"A Time for everything "

"A time for everything "

A Time to live , and a time to die
A time to laugh , and a time to cry.
A time to learn , and a time to be Taught
A time to stand , and A time to fall.
A time to love , and a time to heat.
A time to feel , and a time to be numb
A time to speek , and a time listion
A time to drive , and a time to fly
A time to be , and a time not' to be
A time for change , and A time for gain
A time for loss ,and a time for seasons to stay the same.
A time to stay , and a time to move on
A time move forword ,and a time to go back.
A time to look ,and a time not' to look,
A time to need , and a time to help
A time to be here ,and a time to be gone .
A time to say I need you , and a time to say I love you.
A time to be with you , and a time to leave you
A time to live for you , and a time to morn you.
A time to say goodbye , and a time to say hello
In this world you will soon see that there is always going to be a time for everything , and even if thats hard to belilve sometimes , but its' the truth , and yes also in by saying this I must also say that as there is a time for everything there is also a place for everything , and everything happens for a reason.

BY RUNNING HORSE,
HOPE .

well that's all I am posting of my poetry for now like I said I don't want to bore ya'll to death.

today's poetry day because I feel like writing.

THE WIND''
The wind is so beauty full, and free oh wind how i wish I could be as free as you.
Just the right time to be so gracefully , and wild with your ever blowing ,and souring of one that is so pure , and free Oh how I wish I could fly with the to the edge of the earth where the rivers touch the sand ,and when the storms come rowing through I want to watch you work I want to see , and feel your presence , but most of all I to know what it feel's like to be as fast , and as free as the wind.

RUNNING HORSE.



this is just something that i wrote a really long time ago I have been meaning to post some of my porty here ,but havent yet because I don't want to bore people with this so yall just let me know what you think about this one before I post anymore ok. That way I will know if it is boring you or not , but I really do hope that you enjoy this one .

An update on my mare"

Well I thought I would post an update on how Chiany is doing its' been really chily out today , but so far she seems to be doing good right now. She is not' lemping bad , and I can tell that she is feeling much better now then she did the otherday. I think that the med's are really helping her a lot , and she is starting to run a little now , and thats something that she was not' done in about 1munth or so. But anyway this was your update for the week thank's for thinking about my mare barngoddes I know that she thank's you as much as I do.

Sand of life"

Sand oh Beautifull sand with every grain god has a plan.with every shiney sparkel there is a light at the end of this tunal. On every beach shore there is a becan to shed some light on your darkest moments. In every boat house there is , but one raft to carry you to you destination in witch every person has the same destiation in one pont of their life or another. We all get to be that one special grein of sand in god's eye's wether it be standing on the ocen shore talking to him or if we might be just standing beside the river we are all that one special grain of sand . And that's why I call this the sand of life because we are all equlley special like a grin of sand to god.

Its' some cherokee word's for yall

I thought that sense I'm feeling really good today that i would post some new cherokee word's for all of you to read.

osda odalv adonvdo wehali unelale ayule
ok in englach now

good mounten spirit eagle god child...
ok did I loese anyone there??? if so just let me know

Ok here is a list of my family's history are you ready for this.

Alright this is just some of my family's history from my mother's side are you ready?
Somewhere down the line I am Ken to the Squire Boone family ,and that does enclud The one , and only Danuall Boone. I am ken to the Wilson Brother's witch where the out law's of my family way back when. These are just the coolist part's of my family the rest of it is? I'm part , Irish , Chereokee , Mohake , German, French , Englash, Walch, And duch. Yes I know in more plan word's most people would call that A hin's 57 witch yes I am a mixed bolld peorson , but I take more after the Cherokee side ,and that I am very proud of .

photo's of my life "

This is my people's flag its' the cherokee nation flag I love this photos . It always remind's me about my native side thats the side that I take after the most in spirit .

Here's a good qustion for you all??

Do any of you Belilve in Angels here on earth? and that everything always happens for a reason? let me know what you think I'm just trying to find an anwser to something that has been bugging for a long time now.

Just feelt' like writing this tonight.

There is always going to be both good , and bad day's as we all go through out this life. But we must all keep hanging on , and holding on to the thing's that we hold most dear , and true to our heart's. And even at time's I know that can be heard to do , but we most take with us the good that we have in our live's , and with the good also come's the bad , but as long as we never give up , and never give in we will always reman the one thing that I have learnd is that when you have people around you that love you it can make life so much esear to get through even the worst times in our live's . I have been bleassed with people like that I have had so many people that have cared for me to gide me , and help me through those bad times in my life, and In retern I can help the people that I care about by always being there for them , and helping them the way that they once helped me through I will help you through on this I give you my word. thing's will get better , and you will make it through this I belilve in you am always going to be right here beside you for every step of the way. And you will be alright so long as you belilve in you self the way that I belilve in you.

here are some of the new song's that I like ??

just some of the song's that I have grown to love sense the first time that I heard them.

1. "Would you go with me" by Goush Terner
2."Lip's of angel" By Hender
3."Just came back from a war" By Dearl Warler
4.'Tim Magrow " By Tayler Sweft
5."If you going through hell" By Rodney Atcens
6.'Buttans" By the Pussescat Doll's
7." Call me when you sober" by Evanessense
8."My little girl" by Tim Mogrow
9."If you want to " by Sugerland
10."Before he chet's" by Carrie Underwood
11. "Don't forget to remember me " by Carrie Underwood
12."Wasted" by Carrie Underwood
I may be really wired for likeing these but These are just some of the new song's that really move me , and make me feel better.

The person that i was , and the person that i am now.

I have been working on a scrapbook the past two weeks about me , and my boyfriend James ,and its' really funny because the otherday AS I was reading through it I couldent' help by but see that I am not' the same person that I was before I met him. The person that I once was ,and the person that I am today is so very diffrent ,but yet some what the same? I was always the one that said I would never date never get merried , and never wanted to have children of my own. But now i'm like this sweet loving person that want's all of these things , and we are even talking about getting merried maybe next fall. But so far talk is all that we have been doing I'm still waiting on that ring??? I really do hope that we get merried someday just not' sunday.

A day of theropey with my horse

Yesterday me , and an old friend went for a nice long ride , and it feel't so good to be out , and rideing again I have not' been riding in such a long time that I almost forget what it feel't like. Yesterday was the first time in a long time that I feel't free I have missed that so much in the past year or two.

My Baby's being retired from riding for now??

This is my mare Anny May ,and the other day she was diegnotst with bad artharidess in her back left foot ,and now i can't ride her very nuch anymore on long rides at all. So I'm going through a lot of mintal pain ,and that kind of shit right now at the moment ,and trying to deside what i should do about my life now that i have nothing to ride.

just something that i hold dear to my heart.

Take every day at a time as it comes to you. Always trying to move forword , and move on from the things in the past that have hurt you. and always remember to help others when you can , and lend someone your ear when they need someone to talk to . This is my own pheslofey on life , and the way that i live my life as i live in this wrold today.

Just going to write thought down today???

This is one of the only news storys that i have been flowoing ever sense i heard about this. This horse has the bigist heart that i have ever seen , and this also has to be the strongist horses that i have ever herd about in my intier life. They was saying that Babro would not' recover from his fall , but i knew that he would pull through in time because, that horse has so much going for him.

just something because i'm really bored right now.....

I'm just setting here watching the time pass me by ,and waiting for the right time to come when i can start my own new life ,and be happy with myself manly ,and that really bugges me because if your not' happy with your self then how can anyone eals be happy you . I mean this is just what i may sometimes think like at time's about my self ,and somethings around the world ,and right here in my very own state.

its another redneck pic of the day.

alright you might be a red neck if your going down the road ,and if you think that the highway sing is the speed lemit sing then you might be a red neck.

Its' A poem by me

As I walk throught this life ,and wonder what I have done to be so bleasd with so many people that love me so much I offten wonder if I have found these people on my own or if there has been someone from a higher power giding my to them? I'm stile to this day not' really sure ,but I can say that ether way I know that I'm luckey to have so many people like you in my life so good buy to all of you for now I will be back once again someday though am not sure when I'm takeing some time off to go on a mager thinking retrat for a good while ,and once i find what it is that I'm looking for i will be back i love you all
~THESHADOWWALKER~ Hope

Ok its another gussign game kari this one if for you

1.what is my favret drink that i wish i was dirnking right now??
2.what clolor is my eyes??
3.what is my favret food?
4.what is my favet thing to do??
5.what is the one thing that i love most in this world??
6.what is the year that i grgawted high school????
7.what is my the clolor of my truck???
8.do i ware boots of filpflps ????
9.do i like pink or black more???
10.what is the one thing that i can't stand being around???????????????????
11.why did i post this ???
12.will i post another game soon???

well i hope that you all have fun withthis one i can't wait to see the ansers good luck.

Here is my boyfriend ,and my's first photo with eachother

This was taken down at bald knob the first time we went out on the big truck together

its friday yep ie i oh

Today has been a good day so far after lastnight when i had a long talk with james ,and told him somethings about what i would ,and would not' put up with he has finally come to my why of thinking now. In other news i'm so glad to be home again i have been out on that truck for the past mounth or so ,and am so happy to sleep in my own bed once again. So far everything is going well i think?? I am so damm ready for james to stop wanting me right by his side all of the time I do love him with all my heart ,and i love him more then i have ever loved anyone ,but even i need some space once in awhile you know what i mean.

Here is a pic of my new baby

This is Deliah she is 1/2 german shapred 1/2 chow chow James my boyfriend got her for me ,and she is such a good dog even though she is only 3 mnts. old she makes every step that i make ,and know one strang can walk up to me ether she don't like that at all.

is there anything that i can do right???

Sometimes i feel that i can't do anything right ,and i try and try ,but its like i can't make anyone in my family happy. I am so damm sick ,and tired people trying to chang who i really am ,and not' only that ,but i'm also sick of people useing me and then throughing me away like i'm a pice of papper or something. I am just about ready to say the hell with it all ,and throgh in this tawil that want ever stay dry.
I'm sick of people telling me what i need to do with my life ,and who i can ,and can't be with ,and then trying to force me to choes betwen them ,and other people that i care about. I'm sick of being confind in this smill box that want let me out ,and i'm damm tired of people trying to breck my spirit . Right now all i want to do is get shit faced ,and then sleep for about 3weeks or maybe even more then that because,i'm so tired of trying to act like someone that i'm not ,and never will be. I don't know maybe i'm just really being a bitch today ,but i am so sick of telling everyone that everything is alright when most of the time its' not' I am sick of not' having a damm job ,and not' having any money to do anything with I think that i need to go back and talk to my sreank or something because i'm geting so ready to just move away ,and never look back on anything. I feel like i'm being ponished for something that i have no idea of what i did wrong with my life or where i fucked up ,and forgot to trun or if i even passed the socalled right road as my family seems to think ,and if i did pass it by ,and they can't see that i'm almost right where i want to be then i'm just sorry as hell for them because i am going to be who i am ,and that will never change.

Just some of the things that I can't stand

here are somethings that i can not' stand being around

1.Stupid people that can't drive
2.My family
3.my family
4.watching law ,and order
5.New Yark ,and or driving through there
6.people that ley to you all the time.
7.people that are always trying to hurt me.
8.driving a ford pos
9.seting around with no money for gas to go job hunting
10.gay people that hit on me
11.the war that is for no reason at all.
12.people trying to force me to chous sides
13.my brother
14.loud 18 weelers that hank at me

well i think that i better stop here before i get careded away with the way i think about somethings in this wrold.

Alright here is some of my art

Pleas don't run away this is stucky the aleian

What my boyfriend did to me today

After we got back down to bald knob today I had my mom come ,and pic me up then james said that he was going back home to jonesbro well then after I got home I called him to see where he was ,and if he was alright ?? I called him about 100 times ,and still could not' reach him ok now I'm starting to get worried about him. I did not' know if he had areack of if he mead it home or what?? ,but after the other day when my sister Kari reacked her truck I have been on eage because I hate hearing that somone I love has a reack so fanily after about 4 hours james calls me ,and Then i get on to him for screing the tottle shit out of me,and now he knows that when I call he damm well better pic up the damm phone.

Its already friday again

Lastnight I went out ,and started to work with my 3coalt that are way over due for training to start,and I desided to ride my two year old bay filley lastnight right before it got dark ,and she donw really well I road her around for about one hour in the yard bar back ,and she even trated around for a while ,and she did not' even bow up with me not' onece so I think that she is going to be one hell of a good mare when I'm done with her.

alright her is my next game.

Ok its another gussing game about me
do the best that you can ,and then I will give you your scor

1.What is my nic name that everyone calls me ?
2.What is my middle name is it

lane
augsta
jene
or alley

3. What day was I born on ?
4.How do you speel my last name is it
laire
larry
or larie good luck with this one?????

5. Where was I born ??
Batesville ar
heber springs ar
little rock ar
searcy ar

6.What's my favret horses name.????

7.Who is my to best friend's??

8.what is my sisters names??

well that is all i got not' much ,but this should take a while to get done have fun.

Here is some of my familys history

After going over to barn godesses site I thought that I would post something about my nativ blood.

As some of you may know I'm part nativ american Cherokee ,and mohack my grandmother on my dads side was almost full blood cherokee ,and my great great garnmother on my moms side was full blood cherokee ,and my garndmother on my moms side is part mohack. I don't remember very much about my dads mom ,but i do remember that she did look like a cherokee ,and now that I'm older I can see that much better now here is a pic of her ,and you may have seen this already ,but I thought that i would post it anyway . So when i think about I have more native in me then most people know. My great great garndmother was from mississippi ,and then they all moved down to Oklahomea .

A game

alright its time for me to post my first blog game are you ready ????

Ok its a gussing game see how many of these you can guss right

what is my favret clolor is it
1.red
2black
3.green
4.blue

next what is my favret movie is it

1.top gun
2.mask
3.moon strok
4.derty dancing

what is my favret books to red
1.love storys
2.horrer storys
3.drama storys
4.horse storys

alright last one ,and if you think you know me you should get this one

who is my most favret singer

1.big and rich
2.god smak
3.icp
4.acdc
5.green day
6.cher
7.selena
8.gorge strat

now then if you think you got these down then Email me your ansers at noangle_9@hotmail.com ,and i will tell you if you got these right have fun ,and good luck

Time as i see it?

There is a time for everything in life
I have learnd that there is only time as you go through life. only one time to be your self only one time to love ,and love truely only one time to be a kid only one time to be your self ,and only one time to live ,and one time to die ether way you look at time when you think about it all we have in life is only time.

What I have learnd about love /

If there's one thing that I have learnd about love its' that it will always snek up on you when your not' looking for it to. Thats what it done to me when i wasint looking for anyone I found the most kind ,and loveing man that I am so much in love with now .

Just more of my way of looking at things??? let me know what yall think

Its not' bad to kike back ,and just had a good time watching your tv???he he

when I was gone for 3 weeks this is what happend

well frist off right the bat I was having so much fun being away from home ,and then it seemed like just about every day my mom would call ,and tell me that something was wrong back home. After about one week of that I got tird of that so I trund my phone off. Then I had to do some traning on the new boyfriend not' very much though he is learning so well now. Then we went to about 15 diffrent states ,and then we came back home I stayed home this week ,but he had to leve out on monday the very same day that we got back. I miss him so much I will be so glad when he gets back home.

here is a pic of my hony

This is James my boyfriend I can post that now because kari has met him ,and she told me that I done good ,and i can call him my boyfriend now.

fare well pasty

on monday i gave my pony pasty to kari's little gril so she could have her frist pony. I went down to karis on monday to tell her baby that the pony was now her's ,and the look on that little grils face was so worth it ,and I know that pasty will always be loved by her ,and all the other kids so I can it was worth it just to see the look on her face that day. That look is one thing that I will never be able to forget. I'm so happy that she is happy ,and that pasty is happy to.

More of my own quotes

" For life can only be what you make it to be ,and only you have the paower to take controll of it and be the way that you chooes to be."

Here is one of my own quotes

" What is life but light What is death but darkness? We all see our far share of both throughout our lives ,but if it where not' for the darkness we would never be able to see the light of life for in witch is the true beauty of living."

This is one of my philosophy's that I live by to always remind myself that everything always happens for a reason.
I would like to know what you think when you think about life this way does it make any sense about how I see things that happen in ones life?

Here are some of my favret quotes by Shakespeare

1. "All the world's a stage ,and the men and women marley players. They have their exits and their entrances,and one man in his time plays many parts, and his acts begin seven ages."

2. "We are such stuff as dreams are made on and our little life is rounded with a sleep...."

3. "If music be the food of love ,play on;give me excess of it, that,surfeing the appetite may sicken,and so die."

4. " Nothing comes from nothing: Speak again."

5. " Love looks not' with the eyes but with the mind."

6. " I have no other but a woman's reason: I think him so ,because I think him so."

7. " When beggars die there are no coents seen;the heavens themselves blaze forth the death of princes."

I hope that I don't bore any one with the things that I'm posting these days.

Here is a book qute From

Tell me , O muse , of the hero who travelled far ,and wide after he sacked the famouse town of Troy?

Any Idia of witch book this is from ? think about it ,and then go down to see the anser .


The anser is That this is a part from the Greek book The ODYSSEY number 1.


I know that I may seem wired because of the things that I post ,but i can't help myself I love evry minit of it.

Ok its' a japanise history lession

Did you know that through years of studying jepan research shows evidoence iniccats that the Jepanese have been making swords in jepan ever sense 700 A,D, I find this very interasting to study about what do you think?

The beauty of life its self as I see it?

Some peoople have diffrnet ways of seeing things ,but I have always seen things the only way that I know how. The way that I see life is by comparing it to a rose I know that may sound dubm ,but if you think about what i'm about to say it might make sense to you. The pic that I put on this post noteis that its' a green rose? the reason that I put a green rose for this post is because that is how I see life now.
The rose itsslef to me stands for all the beauty that life has in store for evry one us ,and how we are all conacted to eachother through this big thing that we all know as the WROLD. Now the green on the rose stands for life its' self ,and I don't really even have to talk about what the green stands for because it talks for its' self. But I will tell you how I see it through my own eyes alright the green witch rapresints life by the simpule fact that it's green you may ask why I see that? Well when I see a green rose I see not' only a rose but I see how that rose can tell the story of life. You can see what I see in this rose just by thinking about how when all the greass ,and trees ,and evry other plant trunes green at the begaing of spring ,and just as they trun green when they grow ,and start to bulm so do we as humen beings if you think about it like this when we are bron in to this wrold we are also new ,and then we soon start to grow ,and blussm juts as evrything elas that is living. So that is how I see the true beauty of life.

Did I confuse anyone with this one? and do you understand how I see things diffrent now.

Here is anothre energy pic

Alright I know that this one may seem kinda boring to ya'll ,but I have nothing elas to post so these will have to do for now. I juts like to study the human energy fild because i find it cool so who wants to tell me about the meaning of this pic???

OK its another wired history qustion for you?

Alright this pic is of something from anitint eaugep can you tell the anser to what this photo is of???? If not' I will tell you later

I am so damm tirerd

Well lastnight I was up all night talking wiht my guy friend James ,and we talked for about 20 hours starght on the phone. We where talking from MI to In ,and It was 5pm today before I got to bed ,and right now I'm running on just 2 1/2 hours sleep ,and I am still so tired So I want be posting anything elas for a while . So I hope all of ya'll have a good two weeks because I'm taking a breck for bloging .
have a good momeral day weekend.

The last movies that I watched

1.Saw
2.Top Gun
3.Windtalkers
4.Despration by stiven king
5.Charlis Angles Full Tradel
6.Dearmer
7.Soux City
8.Heldgo
9.The Davils Reajaktse
10.American Beauty

As you can tell I don't have A Lot to do in the daytime so I wathc videos just about all day now.

Some of the books that I have just

1 THE HARDY BOYS 96 AGINST ALL ODDS

2. MISSING THE PEIANO BY ADAM RAP

3.LIVE WIRE

4.THE HARDY BOYS LAW OF THE JUNGLE

5.DIANA SECRETS ,AND LIES

Ok these are the five books that I have read in the past 6 weeks ,and the really funny part is that I don't even hardly ever read ,and when I do it takes me at lest two weeks to just read one book. I think that I must be on some kind of a book reading kike or something .

The talk that my boyfrind ,and I had lastnight

Well when my boyfriend James called me last night around 6pm we where just talking away ,and then I told him that my best friend ,and sister wanted to meet him when he gets home next weekend. After I told him this he really quit ,and thats not' somthing that he does a whole lot. So I said whats wrong he said nothing ,but the last time I meet my grilfriends friend's they brock up with me just because they dident like me. So I told him that I was not' like evryone outthere ,and he finally said that I could interduce him to my friends. I told him that they said they would be nice to him ,and he was juts like ok is that when your in the room ,but what if you walk out of the room ,and thye traten to kill me . I could not' help ,but lugh at him.

Some more Cherokee words ?

From english to cherokee transltion of.

1.Buffalo - yanisa ya-ni-sa

2.deer - qwi - q-wi
3.hello- osiyo o-si-yo
4.goodbye- donadqgohvi do-na-dq-go-hv-i
5.moon- svnoyiehinvdo - sv-no-yi-e-hi-nv-do
6.stars - qninoguisi - q-ni-no-gui-si
7.storm - unyla - u-ny-la
8.cat - wesa ---- we-sa
9.white - unegv u-ne-gv
10.bear yonv - yo-va

A really quit pic

I love this one because it has a little girl ,and a horse in it I mean how quit is that .

Nugget

This is my baby boy nuggte he is sleeping upside down funny ha?

Now look at this cat

Ok this a really cool cat I think.

just a pic

Now this is a really fat ,and big Cat don't you think?

I have a qustion for you

Hey evryone out there I was wondering if anyone could tell me what it means to be tagged on the blogger?

here is some more cherokee this time I will make it make sense ok

just some cherokee words.

from english to cherokee how to pronase


January - dunolvtqni du-no-lv-tq-ni
February- Kagali Ka-ga-li
March - Unulqhi U-nu-lq-hi
April - Tsiloni Tsi-lo-ni
May - Acovisgv'ti A-cov)-(I)-s-gv'-ti
June - Datsaluni Da-tsa-lu-ni
July - Guyeguoni Gu-ye-guo-:ni
Auguyst - Galoni Ga-lo-ni
September- Dulisdi Du-li-:s-di
October - Duninvdi Du-ni-nv-:di
November- Nvdadegwa Nv-da-de'-wa
Deccmber- Vsgiyio V'-s-gi-yi

I hope that this will help you to better understand why I write ,and try to learn the cherokee ,and other langegese

Ok I want post anymore differnt languges for today ,but tomorrow I will be posting in Greek,and then Irish so I hope that you enjoy it. Who ever knew that I could understand so many diffrnet langueges ???? Well I mostley like cherokee ,and Italin so that is why I have started postign in them. If I have lost any one with this just ask me ,and I will exaple ok/

now its' time for a little cherokee this is the cherokee lesson of the day????

Ok here is the Cherokee words

Yowanegv Tsalagi atuyasti wudeligv amoatsila galungdi ???????????

the engluash words are .

Arkansas cherokee aginst the West fire water sky.

well did I lose you anywhere with that

Just a yesterday overvive fror yall'

Well yesterday was a really long day for me ,and I thought that it was never going to end. I got up at 7am took my pill went out to check on all the anamils ,and then went to town after that is was now 2pm so I went for a run after doing that I got back home around 4pm ,and had just finally got to set down ,and relaxe for a little bit. Then right at 5pm my boyfriend called me ,and we where on the phone for 7 hours ,and no I'm kidding about that then I fianlly got to bed around 2am ,and got today at 6am ,and now have nothing to say because My mind has just went blank on me. So maybe I will post more later after I get my brien to start working onec again.

ok here is one that I will give you the ansers to.

alright here go's


Per dio ha a programma per ogin vivere essendo a aratura thire possendore percorso attraverso vita.

here is the enagulash trans.

For gad has a plan for evry living being to fallow thire own path through life.

I love this quwt it really makes sense to me ,and the Italin words say it so much better then I could ever say it.

Ok heres another one ,but you have to coment to get the anser.

Per voi a vedere the allineare signifiacto di vita da useing vostro possedere energia

now see if you can get the meaning of this one let me know what you think ,and then I will tell you what this saying means as well

I will give you a little hint ok some of these words are in both the Italin ,and eanglush translation that I have given you above.

Heres a little Italin for ya'll

OK here goes lets see if I can remember how to say this.

in Italin

The unano energia healing con amore ,E attraverso the anima?????

Ok here is the engulash translation for .

The human energy healing with love ,and through the soul.

ok did I lose anyone with that one???

Here is another pic of ????????

Ok now I wanted to see just how many of you know what this photo represents ,and see just how you all anser this one.

A Energy Lesson

This photo shows how the Humam body cerats its' own energy this is somthing that not' many people have yet leard how to master. This one photo explains how some people are able to know all about others as soon as they met them. Now for the really fun part of the post I want to see how many of you think that they know what I am talking about ,and if you have the right ansers to this qustion Have fun with this now.

Just a really funny pic

I think thsi one is so quet

Just a really funny pic

I think thsi one is so quet

A family photos////

This is my garnddad ,my sister Whitney ,and me I'm the little baby I think I was like 2mounths old.

My Garndmow

Sense it is may I thought that I would post a pic of my garnmow ,and this is in her honour of her this week she would have been 106 years old so this is my way of saying happy birthday to my garnd.

Ok I'm posting something new

This is a pic of my garnmomws caktiis that my dad gave her when he,and my mom first got together this thing is 21 years old now .

This is a redneck deer stand

Funny liceinsnplat

Welcom to Arkansas

A really dumb sing